E - Vida

I'm pretty sure that I was still fast asleep at this time, 9 years ago... Sure, it was an early wedding, but hell, I was just a fresh 20 and still took as much sleeping allowance as a teenager! Tonight - I guess being on the back end of meds, all slept out thanks to the previous day of bedrest and of course, being woken up by our 3-year-old who has wet the bed (again) is more than enough to get you up and at'em at 2am. So while I may not have previously set this time aside for reflection, here we are... Our wedding anniversary can stir up all sorts of memories and feelings; The ooh-la-la of the day - that's me remembering how silky smooth my hair was! The dress - the one that I have in my possession for the first anniversary ever but I can't a damn fit into! The prep - excluding the cover up for the bad tan lines from our outing to Bordtjiesdrif The nerves - especially when I stood at the front door of the house and yelled back inside to my family, "I

Before my last post, I played around with the layout template. It bothered me that I could still see a post from June that spoke about me saying goodbye to my old job. Every time I scrolled down the page, there was a sneering voice in my head telling me that I hadn't made any progress since then - especially since here I was, back at this job! A tough mind game for a task-orientated girl like me. These days I'd like to think of it as full circle " t hrough a series of developments that lead back to the original source, position, or situation or to a  complete  reversal of the original position " (Merriam Webster)   for a good reason... A season of big lessons. A serving (or 3) of humble pie. A wake up call. I could not say these things out loud at first. I was riddled with disappointment, exhaustion and many, many questions; How come I was accepted into the programme but didn't feel at peace about it? Were my desires misplaced or misunderstood? Why wa